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I was looking through the archives of my past blogs the other day and it struck me just how much and how little I’ve changed over the years. From the artless naivety of circa 2001, to the raging emo-ness of 2003, to the vacant apathy of 2006 - in a sense, blogs reflect the zeitgeist of our personal lives. Fascinating, but I’m glad I never kept any of my old ones online. I was such a pinhead back then.

One very obvious gap in the blog records was the year 2007. And there’s a good reason for that.

A good portion of the past year or so was spent mired in an uncertain period sometimes called quarter-life crisis. I suppose most people experience that at some point after graduation from college. Quarter life crisis is strange - its not like, say, losing your job where the are ramifications are immediately clear. Rather, it seems to creep up with you insidiously over a protracted period of time. Depression sinks in gradually as it dawns on you that life now can no longer be dictated by capricious whims as before, and that you will become yet another (insignificant) cog in the vast and unforgiving capitalist world, nothing more.

A year of working in the army bureaucracy and a national laboratory made me realize that more than anything, I need a job that grants me a high degree of autonomy and freedom. Thankfully, I think I have found a couple of viable solutions. One of which involves the internet and the other, Grad school (though exactly where I’m still undecided). Either way, I’m glad I’m over with QLC. My motivational carrots are properly dangling in front of me now. Bring on the world.